I’m so terrible with money, sometimes I don’t know how I get by. It’s really reach crisis proportions!

3 of them, all similar lengths and colours:

HAven’t been steady with the practice, but I’ve tried this about 4 times in the past week and I do manage to shimmy around a bit.

“I have to finish this long important project. It should already be done by now and I need to plough through it”

“I CHOOSE TO START THIS TASK WITH A SMALL, IMPERFECT STEP. I’LL FEEL TERRIFIC AND HAVE PLENTY OF TIME FOR PLAY”

I can play, basically. Having come from acoustic guitar helps a lot. But I want to be a confident bass player.

I don’t have a best friend anymore, and other friendships are scarce and pathetic. I’m lonely; I need new friends in my life.

Having one of those days. I am a work and for the love of me I want to be home in front of a mirror with a pair of tweezers! The guy I am seeing is fed up as I never want to do anything anymore. Not sure how much longer that relationship is going to last. So it is pretty damn sad that picking my face seems to be more important then my relationship.

I have decided that I need to make a life style change!!! I have previously given up meat for a month and it made me feel great… So I have decided to give up something that I love but I know is not good for me. Fried Food is probably one of my greatest weaknesses. If you can fry it, I will eat it!!! This goal is in part to help my goal of being healthier at the age of 42 then I am currently at the age of 24. My Blood Pressure has been high for the last 5 years and I need to drop about 20 pounds if not more. This will be challenging yet I believe achievable!

WISH ME LUCK, and hope I don’t have any slip ups!

I’ll say I am better than half way through.
I have the details all in store and now taking the time to re-read
and get it all together!

I was planning on by October. Now I’m thinking maybe September.
YAY!!

Made my decision. No more TV. I actually don’t own TV, but I watch TV-shows on-line. The exact decision is to allow myself watching Breaking Bad when it comes on TV, but that’s it. only few shows left in this month. Nothing else. And no other shows. I would like to replace this sidetracking mechanism with an other way of dealing with whatever I’m dealing at the moment. I’m not sure with what yet. And second thing: I should prepare myself for challenge to be tempted for more when I watch the show on time. How can I do that? Perhaps by inviting someone to watch it with me? I’ll keep thinking.

1. BBQ ribs

2. Spending time together watching stuff

3. Taking the dog for small walks

4. Sleep

5. The times when it doesn’t itch (although infrequent)

First need to pick an instrument

Planned for 2014 for my wife’s 40th birthday

I was late on this, but I had sent her a gift that arrived on time.

Okay, something in me wants help: I actually went for CodA meeting. And then, somehow because I think I wanted someone take care of me, I went to the Oliver Tweest free food kitchen, and had something to eat. Felt strange to go there, but also felt good. It’s good to be given, to be in the circle of care. And about the CodA: knowing that I’m not the only one with problems with coping helps…

Thank you for the reminder, just in time, that my choice of how to react will determine my experience. Thank you that I was able to reign in my attitude and react in the healthiest way possible given the situation.

Thank you for sweet sweet lovin’ with Pancake this morning.

Thank you for my suocera’s support.

Thank you for less stress and worry this week than what I was burdened with last week.

Thank you for hope.

I have also decided that I will get my first and only tattoo after a year of being married. No sooner but possibly later if I cannot find something I really really like.

This month I finally broke my caffeine habit!!!
I was sooo addicted to coffee but now it is just a treat I have here and there, and it is almost always decaf which has a lot less caffeine. The point is that I wake up in the morning and the first thing in my mind isn’t,”I need coffee!” Now it’s, “I need my banana smoothie!” lol

Today I am grateful for:
- My health.
- My (relative) wealth.
- My good luck being born in the place & time I was born.

Things that made me happy today:
- That the things I’m grateful for offer me the opportunity to change.

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Got a major project into another stage that will take less of my time.

Spent zero krona today.

i.e. get in or start a band :b I’ve been playing lots of stuff lately (guitars, piano, drums and singing).. but just by myself. Though there’s nothing wrong with that, I’ve really enjoyed it! And I’ve noticed that, despite the fact I’m working on all these instruments at the same time, I’m getting better and better. But now it would be nice to see whether I can cope with other musicians…

I’ve also recorded a lot lately (considering my shortage of time) and they are rather good, I guess.. some of them even awesome! And now I’m starting to find my style, which is somewhere in between progressive alternative rock pop or so… anyhow, to start a band playing my music. That’s the goal.

I’ve asked couple of my friends I trust and my dad to listen to my production.. and they seemed to like them too. Of course they’re no studio quality but hey, I don’t live in a studio and I’m just getting started! So maybe one day I’ll be brave enough to post a link here and let you to listen and judge (:

couldn’t weight myself this am, at a hotel…. trying to help my mom feel better… feeling like i kinda blew it though b/c i left before dinner was all the way through (at 8pm although it started at 6:30 it was ridiculous how long it took to get the food) because i wanted to go to a dance class…. i should not have gone… but i did.

they were playing salsa music in the restaurant. i couldn’t stop myself. i felt guilty about it.

but then she also told me one of the plants died where i am working as a gardener, the tenant was supposed to water it, but i am the gardener, i am also supposed to water them…

i feel guilty about that too.

:(

my schedule got messed up last week… i just need to be really firm about sticking to the schedule. and my mom is all screwed up now too she is drinking too much and all screwed up and some dumb guy. blah!

well. “when in doubt work out!”

idea for today: eat oatmeal for breakfast, fruit, eggs… something healthy.

try to get to the zumba class at 7 (hopefully breakfast won’t take FOREVER like dinner did)

and to the yoga class at 8.

take a nap in the afternoon.

Helping my daughter plan her wedding has been fantastic. Things are falling into place so easily. I couldn’t be happier for her. We both wish her father could be here. While he can’t be here in person, we know he will be there in spirit.

She is going to be a beautiful bride.

Losing weight is my goal, but keeping my mind occupied is my priority. So Im here reading in Starbucks.

I listen to ‘Be your own life coach’ a tape that has inspired me over the years and one that I have only recently rediscovered after thinking I had lost it.

I’ve made my bed every single morning :)
I’m going to keep on doing it!

Flying for the first time in 15 months and I wasn’t even daunted. I had read some books and returned myself to the mind set that there is nothing to worry about. I did use techniques such as connecting as much of myself with the plane as possible at times when it was slightly rougher, as in adopting the brace position. I was able to look out of the windows and appreciate what I was seeing.

I have two more flights before I come home in September both of which are longer and which I’ll be travelling on alone so this will really be my test. My two goals, set to prove I am actually over this fear, are to use the toilet during a flight so moving around and being in more of a confined space and also falling asleep so being relaxed enough to let go or any tension I’m feeling.

It’s a good start but I’m confident I can build on it. I am very pleased so far :)

Form:United Sates of America: Toms River NJ

Had a hard time waking up, but got up, dressed and ate.

To save money so I’ve completed my “Save Money” goal. My next goal is to save $300. I’m excited. I’ve decided to say my penalty will be not being able to shop for 3 months. I like to shop, I think we all know that by now. But I’m not an excessive shopper. So The shopping i won’t be doing is for myself, If I have to buy the responsibilities then I will do so..I’m one of those people that says “oh while i’m out buying necessities i can buy this for myself” haha not anymore! the challenge is on!

I’ve drawn it out and completed the base layer of paint. It looks ok at this point, but it needs a lot of work. I’ve painted myself before but they’ve never been very good; my technique has vastly improved in the last few years so this one should be better :)

I did some exercise this month, but probably not an olympic effort to improve my activity in this area… I will keep trying it anyway.

mackerel/ onion/garlic/ginger/lime/oil/coriander & salady veg & beans/lentils etc

with mung bean sprouts

pasta puttanesca or lamb puttanesca w/ salad or veg

lamb steak w/ steamed cabbage/carrot & boiled peas/spinach w/ 3 cloves garlic/butter

Alarm didn’t go off, so it was up and wash and dress and breakfast in one smooth sweep. Had breakfast standing in the lovely warm sunshine.

I live almost 2 miles out of the town centre, which is a half hour walk or a 1.30 bus ride (that’s the cheaper bus too). I’ve promised myself that whenever I walk in to or out of town, I will put the bus fare I would’ve spent into my money box, then count the contents at the end of each month and see how much I saved! I reckon I’ve got at least 5 from the last week alone :)